One of my greatest beliefs has always been to be part of a proactive civil society. I believe that if something is not right, one should speak out, or act to change it. As a couple, my husband and I lived by that code and were active in community affairs together. I was the quiet gatherer of information. He was the negotiator, the voice, drawing in supporters with his gregarious nature. One thing was for certain, if there was an issue we believed in, we did not let it go. We were a formidable force. Together we could change the world.
My belief system crumbled with my marriage collapse. For a long time, I could not think of world affairs. I could not think of community. I could only think of myself. I was down on the floor in a reflective haze gazing at the walls thinking only about me. I felt that I had lost my inner compass, that I was not acting on my own beliefs. I was not out there contributing. I was not righting the wrongs. I was not speaking out. I was not standing up for others less fortunate. I thought it must have been us as a steadfast couple that gave me the energy to speak out and the courage to make a difference. I thought it must have been our professed shared values of peace, fairness, and respect for all, and the unity of sharing those values, that gave me my inner core of strength. I was so strong that I was able to stand up and speak out. I wondered what happened to those beliefs that we had stood for together. I wondered whether I only acted the way I did, and I only believed what I thought I believed, because he was beside me.
The truth was, at the time when I was down on the floor, I felt that I had lost peace, fairness, and respect at an individual level. If I had lost them at an individual level, and they were my source of strength and therefore my strength was gone, how could I help others?
I have now changed. My beliefs have changed. They changed when I was down on the floor. This is what I now believe.
- I believe in me.
- I believe I can change the world, my world.
- I believe I can change my world, one decision, one action at a time.
- I believe it is taking me a while to become the person I want to be… and that’s OK.
- I believe that although my circumstances may have influenced where I am, I am responsible for who I shall become.
- I believe that to find kindness, I need to act with kindness.
- I believe that to find respect, I need to act respectfully.
- I believe that to find fairness, I need to be fair.
- I believe that to find love, I need to be loving.
- I believe that to give peace, I must be at peace within myself.
- I believe that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences, and regardless of whether anyone notices.
- I believe that I can become a hero in my own world, and to become that hero will be a great achievement of which I can be proud.
- I believe that to find balance in my life, and be fully present in my life, means I will become that hero in my own world.
- I believe that even before I become a hero, I can start changing my outside world, one heart, one person, one soul, one need at a time.
- I believe in me.
What do you believe in?